2009 to Date....

I come to my blog everyday checking like if a new post will appear miraculously. I have had SOOO much go on that I would love to write about, but the words don't seem to want to be written. I need to get them out though. My brain is taking over my life with all these conversations going on.

2009 to date has not been all that great. I had hoped that 2009 would really be mine, but I can't yet seem to get a firm grasp on the year yet. My hands keep slipping off. Every night I seem to have to try to take my brain off so that I can get some rest. It doesn't work. I keep falling back to reality and the fact that I feel I've failed in some missions in my life. My perspectives have surely changed. Though I am not broken by things that are happening, I am shattered and it's taking me a little while to just gather the pieces and move along.

School has been going great though. And imagine how times flies... that I'm almost done. I'm already on the job hunt but with this recession and the possibilities for my area it's going to be a long and hard search for work.

My cousins came in to visit this weekend. It was nice. They surely kept me occupied. Even if I wanted to hear the voices in my head, the voices of my cousins talking overpowered it all lol. But they surely showed me in this time what family and love is all about. I know they always have my back regardless.

I'm trying my best to take things one day at a time. Harder done than said. The one good thing I have a 10 week count down to this quarter and a trip, and that makes me very happy. I hope enough to shut out my brain, and it's thoughts.