I have gotten to the point where I feel like my life has been at a standstill for too long. I have had NO goals accomplished in the last two years (IMO) and for the first time in my life I feel like I am “wasting time”. Or that time is passing by and I’m just not getting on the train. Yes I am being crippled due to a few external factors but surely I must have something going on that will encourage me that some kind of forward movement is happening.

The last couple of weeks have really allowed me to focus on what I may need to do for some preferably upward movement, but in fact any kind of movement at all is welcomed. I have given myself two months for things to come together somewhat. Or for me to put things together as best as I can. My educational goals have been stunted half by myself and so I therefore need to get myself up and on that. I actually think that with that going on I wouldn’t feel like I’m failing. At least, that is ALL me. And if in two months there is no movement, then I think I start over somewhere else.

I really just wish the plans I have now would just come together: educational goals, relationship goals and other personal life goals. I’m ready for a settled, or as close to settled as possible, and consistent movement with my life. And no matter how I try to get things in place for that it seems to just fall on the side. And though I can’t control everything I really think I need to take the reins on what I can control and get on it. And let all the other unsure things fall to the side.