Waiting for the Mark to Buss!!

I'm not having a good day today. In fact I didn't have a good day yesterday either. I'm really really frustrated with so many things all at the same time. I know some people will want to say it's my medication and the fact that there was a mix up and I had to take a generic one instead that makes me sick. But dammit!! It is not. I am truly frustrated.

On Sunday evening I just felt really nervous and anxious about something. Yes something. I can't pin point what I was worried about, but I know my heart was heavy and I really felt like I was starting to hyperventilate. I eventually went to bed and slept for most of the night but woke up the next morning with the same dread feeling. By the time I got to work, I was just waiting to hear the "bad news" whatever it was cause surely my body was preempting some sort of impending danger. Nothing happened but the feeling did not subside until I got home.

This morning...the same thing. I got to work in tears because I just felt like I was on the edge of the cliff and it was giving away. I still feel like I am and nobody is trying to help. I feel like they can't see me and I'm screaming. I tried explaining it to two people but instead of trying to hear what I'm saying it turned into "interview the crazy person". No help.

Yes I have a few things on my mind but never in my life have I felt such heavy dread on my subconscious. None of these issues I have I think should make me feel like this. I'm more worried now about the "news" than the feeling I have right now. Because if I can feel like this and not know what's going on then imagine!! Sigh! The one thing I trust in myself is my gut feeling.



I did though call my Dr to ask him to make sure that I do get my correct medication back. I need to cover all my bases.