I am sure sleep would not be visiting me tonight. I have so much going on around me right now. My brain is on extreme ramble.

I always feel like when it's on this channel it always has to get to black out before I start to get proper reception again. I think it's going to last through the week. Besides the emotional cloud right now I also have to deal with making some tough decisions professionally in a few days. And based on how I'm feeling right now I may be leaning more to relocating than staying.

I feel like sometimes I'm ready to spread myself thin being there for others but sometimes unable to give myself the same strength to be there for myself. Or even to let ppl be there for me. I always think other ppl have their own shit to deal with and so I just deal.

But I think I have a little too much going on right now for me to "just deal" alone. But Im afraid to turn to someone right now. I love my friends/family to death but I feel like I need unbiased ears and unhoneyed lips.

*Big Sigh*

I guess it's one day at a time.

Quite fitting!!



I love this riddim. Mavado kills it on this also.

yuh have mi ova ere a tink fi tell every man weh mi a talk to seh mi is spoken for

seh mi have a man now weh love mi like cook food and mi “naaah let guh” like weh Gyptian seh.

yuh si you? Yuh have mi heart a beat all sort a boodoom boodoom every time mi phone ring and yuh name come up pan mi touch screem.

yuh si you? have a wild girl like me a tink bout sekkle down an all dis tings

yuh come tie up mi heart strings.

Have mi a tink bout cook and clean fi yuh and keep miself lean fi yuh

Just di soun a yuh voice wet up mi panty same time

Mi see all Trey Songz pan yoochoob a sing sexy song

an all mi can tink of is you a buss off mi lace t’ong

Yuh si you? Only you have buttafly a kin puppa lick inna mi belly

Mek mi feel like mi high, mek mi knees dem feel like jelly

Every maanin noon an night yuh have mi heart a shine like a light

A bere school girl giggling and Port Royal Giddy House feelings yuh lef mi in

An mi nuh even know weh wi stand

Mi nuh even know if yuh is mi tru tru tru tru man.

N Dee

Poetrist

http://www.nadyadee.com/

I decided today that I needed to start writing again. So I logged back into my blogger to "catch up". Lo and behold my last post is exactly how I'm feeling today. A little more than a year ago and I'm waiting for another "mark to buss". Only this time I know what the mark is and I pray that it doesn't really buss.

But yea. TODAY I'm in a position that I can't find anyone to talk to about it. I'm afraid to turn to the people I'm accustomed talking to for fear that they would make me realise that how I am feeling about the situation is true and will confirm that I am really hurt and it's not a figment of my imagination. Well that, and that one of the persons that I usually talk to is part of this feeling at the moment. Lol.. weird.

I hope that occupying my time here will take me through this phase as easy as possible.